Mai RiM uoY eVoLi

our life is a roller coaster... millions of swings... millions of turns... millions of twists... but just like any coaster... riding it is better with someone... someone you will feel safe... someone who simply bends everything to straight lines... some one who fills in the blind spot in you...

We could never change a fact when it proves its existence true... We can never deny something undeniable... We can never trick a lie to submit it self to be right... I make much of an intermission... but the wonder of words uttered can never challenge... words spoken in silent hearts... our hearts are just like morse codes... each beat has a meaning... however whose meaning hard to predict...

People may wonder for I dont really write such topic in my articles... Honestly, I might have been scared to tell... but now as I pass another wonder in my life... Their is nothing stopping me now...

In life somethings are so unpredictable... Some things just happened with out any alarms... After a great night in a promenade yesterday... I came up with one thing... To tell you people... The reason why I tell everyone else na : Tanong mo kay lord... cause some things are not understandable by men... some things just happen... do I Love her? hell do I do... And that would be one thing that would never change... a fact that forever shall take part in my life... a fantasy turn reality... a dream turn truth... She is the lady I shall not care to offer everything for she is all that I ask... She is all I love... She is all of me... Until the last breath shall I speak of her name... She is my life... my love... my past... present... future... I Love you!!

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[] PT genz []

The 0nly thing we could cherish when we`ve got nothing to do are simple memories... Just like the games y0u play, the st0ries y0uve shared, j0kes y0u thr0w at each 0ther and having their c0mpany m0st 0f the time.

Yesterday, January 20.... iT was a happy m0ment t0 g0 t0 the mall and be with your friends just like what we`ve d0ne ... kulitan t0 the max... kantahan blues... t0d0 racing... wasakan ng kamay sa air h0ckey... kainang walng humpay... asaran na walang hanggan at cyempre kwentuhang walang humpay... It was s0 tires0me... paik0t ik0t... gul0....

I was actually late because I still went t0 my m0ther`s 0ffice t0 make stupid excuse just f0r her t0 all0w me 0ut.... shhhh... d0nt tell her... I did s0me stuff and cancelled plans f0r the aftern00n... and after that 0ff I g0 back t0 Faura... pass the supreme c0urt and UP... thr0ugh the right wing entrance and t0 G-b0x where I 0athed t0 meet them... b0x 7...

We were n0t cmplete when I arrived... s0me went h0me early... s0me 0ther ch0se d0ta... 0thers g0t s0me errands t0 attend and 0n Mai`s case... she was absent... and s0me just like me are 0athed t0 f0ll0w...

Ive beaten lhauny and baps in air h0ckey [ my ch0ice 0f game ]... We alm0st l0st the thing y0u g0tta hit cause it simply flew 0ut 0f track... Use the stupid racing machine... that w0nt allw us play vs m0de... singing inside b0x 7... mind y0u... I never sang at that time... playng the sh00ting game with kiankee... we l0st a bunch 0f t0ken f0r that game... eating mini d0ugh nuts... I like m0cha better than the 0ther 0ne... and many 0ther stuff...

Well... it was fun t0 have a stress-free aftern00n... n0 errands t0 d0... n0 b0ring time... it was pure fun... its n0t my nature t0 g0 0ut... but I ch0se t0 j0in in... cause I want t0 free my self... even just f0r a while... till next tym....

[] What? []

What has been happening these past few days has been bugging me for sometime now. Everything happening is like one destined chain of events that makes my mind blow. What is happening to me? to everyne else? Is it just a new years resolution they are trying to abide by? or am i just practically insane simply because the change of events blasts on my face without any warning.

I hate the most when things starts to go against me. My every little support soothes itself to crumlble leaving me in awe. Every aspect of my life supprt begins to get scarce and my lack of these chokes me so much i cant barelly do my everyday choir. My head breaks apart mst of the time nw and i just cant think of anyway on how to go each day of living having such. Adds up is this hell-knws-it-sucks keyboard that cant produce a couple of alphabet pushing me to use an on-screen keyboard which for everynes knwledge is halting the arising ideas my mind fabricates in a rush and if not followed upon pops out, away frm any reach my mind can handle.

I cant speculate of any reasn why i began hating the year. Cant even think of any damb reasn its doing worst of my every breath. why cant it just cast its abnrmalties apart frm me and play it with sme other who would probably entertain himself with thse?

Life is too cruel. She abslutelly gives me the wrst of my nightmares. Why cant she just be keener to undrstand I cant handle the loads of stuff she poses on my shoulder? Im no mutant... Im no super human... Ive felt so stressed out. A catch of breath might have been the nly relaxati0n i had after a days course 0f events. My life sucks.

Ive been so pushed t0 things I w0uld n0t want t0 have and placed t0 places I would nt want t0 g0. I als0 hate th0se eyes that lingers everywhere as if listing up a data ab0ut me. Its like as if their eyes tells me Ive d0ne a massacre 0r that im alien flwn 0ut fr0m s0mewhere eating human flesh t0 fill my hunger.

Whats with y0u all? The year just ended and yet y0u make me crazy because 0f y0ur acti0ns. Are y0u all changing 0r is it me? as far as my instincts say... Im n0 different fr0m what I was. 0r am I just s0 hysterical due by my m0mentarilly l0st 0f intelligence and !ulirat! - cant find the right english that fits. I just am n0t s0 bright en0ugh t0 unerstand b0dy language t0 predict them.

I c0uld never be sme0ne everyne wanted me t0 be s0 st0p making me feel bad im just n0 mr. perfect. Ive been having bad days s0 please let me be. and please keep me 0ut frm the strangest 0f desp0ndency.