What has been happening these past few days has been bugging me for sometime now. Everything happening is like one destined chain of events that makes my mind blow. What is happening to me? to everyne else? Is it just a new years resolution they are trying to abide by? or am i just practically insane simply because the change of events blasts on my face without any warning.
I hate the most when things starts to go against me. My every little support soothes itself to crumlble leaving me in awe. Every aspect of my life supprt begins to get scarce and my lack of these chokes me so much i cant barelly do my everyday choir. My head breaks apart mst of the time nw and i just cant think of anyway on how to go each day of living having such. Adds up is this hell-knws-it-sucks keyboard that cant produce a couple of alphabet pushing me to use an on-screen keyboard which for everynes knwledge is halting the arising ideas my mind fabricates in a rush and if not followed upon pops out, away frm any reach my mind can handle.
I cant speculate of any reasn why i began hating the year. Cant even think of any damb reasn its doing worst of my every breath. why cant it just cast its abnrmalties apart frm me and play it with sme other who would probably entertain himself with thse?
Life is too cruel. She abslutelly gives me the wrst of my nightmares. Why cant she just be keener to undrstand I cant handle the loads of stuff she poses on my shoulder? Im no mutant... Im no super human... Ive felt so stressed out. A catch of breath might have been the nly relaxati0n i had after a days course 0f events. My life sucks.
Ive been so pushed t0 things I w0uld n0t want t0 have and placed t0 places I would nt want t0 g0. I als0 hate th0se eyes that lingers everywhere as if listing up a data ab0ut me. Its like as if their eyes tells me Ive d0ne a massacre 0r that im alien flwn 0ut fr0m s0mewhere eating human flesh t0 fill my hunger.
Whats with y0u all? The year just ended and yet y0u make me crazy because 0f y0ur acti0ns. Are y0u all changing 0r is it me? as far as my instincts say... Im n0 different fr0m what I was. 0r am I just s0 hysterical due by my m0mentarilly l0st 0f intelligence and !ulirat! - cant find the right english that fits. I just am n0t s0 bright en0ugh t0 unerstand b0dy language t0 predict them.
I c0uld never be sme0ne everyne wanted me t0 be s0 st0p making me feel bad im just n0 mr. perfect. Ive been having bad days s0 please let me be. and please keep me 0ut frm the strangest 0f desp0ndency.
