Friday, May 19, 2006

[] NoN-SeNSe []

Im making this post cause I want to update my blog but their is simply nothing great coming out of it... so here is what i`ve got for now...

What makes me sane for the past few weeks?

>> Roentgen text pass <<

I know not everyone knows this... or maybe they know but we keep on telling them the thing does not exist... Since the start of the summer... the roentgen people agreed on chatting with each other in a send to all basis.... it means everybody in the so called text pass circle is going to get the same messages that you are going to utter to anyone belonging to the circle... This craze was started by Ruth a few weeks after end of classes... and since then we have been using it and its been helpful in opening up to everybody... and kind of backstabbing also... specially those out of the circle..

>> Internet, blogging, friendster, survey <<

If you might not notice... my yahoo messenger id has not turned off for sometime now which means ive been online almost everyday and even everynight... You must also have noticed that my picture has been roaming about in the friendster`s bulletin board.. coz ive been answering stupid and senseless surveys just to keep my time some what productive... Ive also gone stupid opening links just like edgar`s that made my summer life exciting and fun { however it does not mean i`ll not kill edgar if ever i`ll see him in the near future...}...

>> Ragnarok <<

Maybe almost everyone in the world knows this online RPG game... Ive been hooked to this game since 3rd year... Ive been happy knowing my mother is generous enough to spare 100 peso every week just to let me buy my ragna load... uhmmm.. or should i say im just a great trickster that`s why my mother is buying my so sweet words.. oh anyway... that is it for these part... Ronin!!

>> audio - visuals <<

If your house is near to us... maybe some 2 blocks away.. id be sure you would be hearing loud rock music... which is if you must know ... comes from my room... Ive been putting the stereo-type speakers to maximum volume and also the mp3 player simply to make happy music... I even wonder why no one has been complainging... maybe the others are also bored enough so they resort with me with loud music.. Another cool thing Ive been watching these days is the japanes show gokusen... I love the story and how scenes were presented... another cool show is pbb... some may say I must be some kind of jologs.. but i think those who are wanting to tell me that are posers... pbb is a nice show and... kim is enough to make it worth watching... Go KIM!!

What makes me insane for the past few weeks?
>> Cellular phone <<

This makes me so stressed out since the night before yesterday... my celphone... one of the things that makes me sane... would not open!! I had used it earlier last thursday... but cause of an unknown reason... It just wont open... I could still remember that Id been using it that night when it suddenly hangged... I remove its batteries cause i thought their is no chance it will operate back... after doing so.. the stupid phone would not open anymore... I plan to bring it to a repair shop later this afternoon... and how I wish it would be in a good condition after that... hmmm...

>> Summer Heat <<

It is so hot... no further explanation ... everybody in these god-damn Philippines must have known that since April... hmmm

Look how senseless Ive been these summer... hmm... My mind would not even work great enough to produce better post than the likes... hmmm... I ive gone poor in english... I think... hmm.. I could see some errors from these post.. specially with the use of these and this... hmmm... but im too tired to edit it all up... so let us just leave it that way.. hmm...

Monday, May 15, 2006

[] beHiNd []

Im here... feet wrapped up by me... residing in a cold and devastated ruins of the past... I was left here alone... longing for the warmth only an angel can let me feel... I feel my body turning restless and numb... I could not sense but these cold floor i have been lying on... and the only dreams i see are nightmares... Im here searched by phantoms... hunting to catch me off guard... wanting to break me into tears...

Im here... chained in the memories of a past... I could not stray for in every corner i see the face... the smiles that once made my own... It was me... that served my own worst enemy... I became an epitome of a history... of a story... a tale.. that has come to an end... an end i could not barelly accept...

Im here... watching through the window... a railing... that has served a wall between me and the world... storms came and i watched in awe as the rain kisses my window.. wondering how beauty was created... from a storm which from my sight was rather chaotic... how art came through... why cant i do the same...

Im here... having the sight of the sun as it rises and sets.. watching the horizon... wishing i could share these pristine beauty with someone... wishing the painting i took sight can make me smile a bit... but rather.. it smites me eagerlly and places me back to where i once passed... where once i was happy...

Im here... prisoner of my own thoughts... Im lying down for an infinity... wanting some one may pass by... to offer me up... wishing a wind may blow enough to lift me up out of these place.... I want to free myself... yet it is myself... that places me into these dillema...

Im here... and here shall I be... for i could not leave it any way... I have been here when the end began to start... when apocalypse was within my reach... I have been here as the pillars that held me... crumbled down... and i fell to darkness... It is a lie to say... the memories has gone out... every inch of what-was was doomed to oblivion... that everything that must have been was gotten over with... when i know for a fact... it never did...
~~~
scion