[] CaNDLe []

Im an absolute early-rise-almost-no-sleep person... Ive slept at about 12 and woke up at exactly {acc to my computer} 2:38... I have not even complied with half the normal-correct sleeping hours which is 8 ... Im not insomiac because I can sleep but I might just be used in waking up so early... I wonder when and why it started but its not fun going online at this time... because I get bored... No people to talk to... No music to listen to { my sound card is still broke... grr }... Not even a person in ragnarok to play with... hai...

Later... about 2 hours from now...{ it already 5:33.. I got reminded Im doing a post a while ago}We might be up to go to papi cio's house { a friend... Ronin} We plan to go to E.K. with our ragnarok buddies { Ronin!} today... Papi Tiki... Rex... Tine... Ate Shei... Kuya sher... Gudo... Ate Beh... Ate Marife... and some other people... This must be fun... its my 2nd time to join the band to go somewhere... and as far as Im concerned I believe this will be a hell of a day... specially with them who are very fond of fun...

Now ... before I get too excited... Im placing myself back to sanity to post this entry... Ive read an emo-ish poem yesterday and I cannot remember how it went... but all it says is... he hates his life and he chose to like to end it... with a line saying something like... I choose to put out the flame in my own candle... it is from katukayo {a letran scroll press...}...

Ive been saying for so many times... that it is so hard to be a "me"... living in my life is something outrageous... So many goals to put through... So many lives to take into... So many lies to speak through... So many things to hide into... Ive gone insane thinking... Am I person who makes my life too difficult or is it simply my own destiny to be placed in such a life I am obliged to live in? I cannot give in to my thoughts thinking... this is all a mistake... I know Ive been born to handle matters such as these... but its simply odd to live in it... when I know... It is to hard to handle and operate... Sometimes, you would almost think, it is impossible to push through with it...

I want to die... that is how I want to say it... I hate living in my life and if ever Im asked to live in it again I choose to stay away from it and live another... a normal life... Im not saying it is bad to be a little different... but it is hard to be different... living with people who are not like you... you'll eventually realize... You are so out of place and you'll fall on your knees saying... I cannot survive... I cannot think a single reason to say it is fun being me... well... it is fun having people around you to comfort you but having yourself like this... is another thing...

I might not survive being me... I might break through the morning as it dawns to rise... I might turn into a rest to plea my self from the friction of having a being... It is not good to be me... It is hard... It is not right to think Im having fun with it... cause it is not... Im restless and shadowed , by my own, Im weak... Ive gone too weak to live in it... and at last... 'till a long wasted life... I'll be just like the person in Katukayo... I chose to like to end my life...

I choose to put out the flame in my own candle...

scion

[] Me BuT NoT Me []

It is 4:48 in the morning... I woke up cause its to too cold... I want to go back to sleep after turning off the electric fan... BUT... I CANT! You know the feeling of having a restless eye that does not want to sleep? It hurts... I feel tired... What a lucky guy you have here today...

I have been so unlucky as I for long my stay in college... I feel the pressure of being a student... I hate it... I hate commuting to school { cause my class is 8:00 , I dont have anyone to ride me to school anymore}... I hate going up and down the stairs every after class{ Ive been used to staying in a room for a long time cause teachers are the one who go to rooms in high school}, I hate enlisting and being able to choose your schedule { Its better off having an assigned room... cause I missed my major class in crs and I might be one of the people running through the halls of AS [near the cr] doing my manual enlistment}... I hate a teacher { sometimes you can't believe teachers... specially when they give you a 5... a 5? as if Ive done nothing... to add more to that I saw my test papers and Ive not failed even once... where did that 5 came from? I oathed to react/ battle /change that specially cause my other grades came too nice... I cant allow the fool to destroy the art in my grade sheet... hmmm}

See... Haven't I been a jynx-kid? Life has been unfair to me... hmmm... I've been a nice good person... Why can't I simply get an equal goodness to pay off for my angelic deeds? It takes too much to accomplish something good, don't they know that? at least a little insentive... please...

Ive been burning time doing everything... It might not be visible... but little by little Im resembling a GC person... Im changing my life... Im giving more time/ effort in my study... but what is happening? Im going down more often because of the stupid goal of achieving an honor... Here is a negative side effect approaching me... because Im turning to GC my standards are higher... means that the chance of failure and disappointment gets higher too... If I was abram-abram... I must not have bothered... and just go on with my life... but its not abram-abram anymore... its abram-gc-abram... 2 letters is a big difference you know... add the additional "-" too...

I hate it... But I'll continue... Im proving something here... I'll eventually see my name at those paper near the entrance to the boy's cr{ I dont understand why the university values the cr and they keep posting things there}... someday... You'll see... hmm... for now... I got to move another step forward... next week is enrollment day... and by that time Im going to transform again....

GC mode...


scion

[] oPeRaTioNaL []

It has been long since I last posted... Everything, well as I surf through the blogs of my "kasabayans", has grown so much... I think my blog is too left away cause of my busy life... I almost forgot my password to open my account... thanks god my brain has not failed serving me rightly...

Well, it’s been a long restless life... Just like anyone else, I’ve got things oathed to be done... And I’ve served this lifetime so much; I forgot that more than this life... I also have my OWN life... I feel so stupid acting to fit-in in this world... My every action, as might also be like anyone, is subjected to other people's actions... Everything is like a domino effect that, to what position your block will fall depends on how the block before you bumps you... Why must we go with the flow? Follow the path through which everything has been going to? Do what the world has always done?

Can't we at least, for just some time, look into ourselves and say... “I’ve done it because I want it..."? Going to school... Doing your school work... Listening to pop music... dressing to what is prescribed... Part-taking over all the earthly pleasures and discomforts... This is the life... We go with the flow... simply because someone likes it... its popular... its in demand... we go for it... It is human nature to be absurd... to live in a life they do but don’t believe... I’ve seen people yearning to do everything in this life... forgetting their own life... and yet realizing in the end... they've not done anything that the world may be proud of... because they simply have been the same victims of the world's trickery game...

I’m looking up to those persons who have done their own way of making a difference... people who does not rest themselves to what the population tells them what is... They stand and speak up... act to what they desire and what they want to do... to live their own life in this life... to show the people that going out of the box is an adventure worth trying... and that a step out of it is a hundred folds better than hours of staying inside it...

I cannot believe for my own that I’m a victim just like anyone else... I’m a deviant... and hate to follow the path through which everyone takes step into... but living in this world is making me forget my own life... that I simply live it as this life... I want to make my own path yet as much as I do it the greater the force I am diverted back to the default path.... This blog.... I consider this an epitome of my being a deviant... speaking of being out of the box... even the act of having one is something I consider as having my own life... some friends ask me... Why do a blog? Well... answer is... coz I’m living my own life...

I’m dormant... I’ve labeled myself as a blogger told me I am... Offensively thinking... I’m a shameful... for some time now... I’ve subjected myself to the world's trickery game... I’ve played so much that I have been addicted doing it and forgetting... I’ve got a life to work on to.... So here I am... going back to where I’ve left... Building up something the world did not push me to do... the blog is now back online.... Remember... It’s not being the best person to live great in this life... but it’s the person that’s living that simple own life...

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scion

[] TRuTH []

What is truth? We may say something is true if it is successfully explained how that statement is able to come about in consideration with its premises and consequent. It must be able to satisfy the conditional and it must also be verified universally, also experienced by others. Relativity may also bring about truth. Due to the fact that now we have pre-formulated truths, If we have a statement we may say it is true if the coherence of the parts of the idea is supported by those pre-formulated truths.

Can we say that there exist an ultimate truth? I believe it does not do so. We must put into consideration that anything that happens around a system may affect the outcome of an idea or problem. In our real world,we say a person may do experiments, researches and information gathering so that it may help him in defining truth. If another person, however, does the same plans in another place opposite as the other it may come out differently. An example is Newton and Aristotle. Newton says things fall in the same rate without considering air resistance. Aristotle on the other hand says heavier objects fall faster. We may say both are correct the problem is their difference of scenario. Aristotle's scenario is suggested in a world same as ours while Newton's is somewhere without air resistance. Just as I say perspectivity and difference in factors are barriers for such a formulation of an ultimate truth.

If we say there is no more ultimate truth, then we say that philosophy is senseless? Philosophy is the quest for knowledge. I believe we are not searching for an ultimate truth but rather we question the ambiguity of ideas. Philosophy then still serves its purpose, to give reasons to happenings and be able to prove its possibility. I say that it is absurd to assume that philosophy will be senseless if we void the existence of the ultimate truth.The causality of things cannot show any sign of ultimate truth because it may be seen in different perspective as was said above but it does not void the possibility of an idea to be valid.

What if a truth is voided out because of another idea? We then go back to perspectivity. We may say the first idea is logically valid. However, their are instances when some other idea is more detailed which is why it is more accepted. Choosing which is true is not a problem there for it really just happens that another idea is detailed. It is simply stereo typed that if an idea is voided out of circulation it is already considered false.

My definition is different if compared to others. The definition of Truth is also something to be think about. There really is no common definition for truth as defined by many people. Even the truth of the "truth" happens to be a problem. But I say again, perspectivity does not void out the possibility of an idea to be true, rather it is placed in as a factor affecting the system. I there for conclude that the definition and assumptions I have presented are true if put in my perspective.

[] TuiTioN Fee []

The iskolar ng bayan title... was given to the students of the University of the Philippines because people believe that they are given top - class education using the taxer`s money... but what happens when the iskolar ng bayan pays for their education in high prices? What happens when the low tuition fee rule is changed? Will people from all walks of life still battle it out for a slot in the country`s premier university? Will the present students ,who have been Iskolar ng bayan, still be able to keep up in paying the increased tuition fees? Will the students of the Countries premier university... still be fit in calling them selves... Iskolar ng bayan?

Many students from different organizations have been giving out leaflets, small talks and student memorandums this past few weeks... They are the staunch defenders of student rights in the university... They have been calling help and support from their fellow campus-mates to stop the university government in pushing thru the tuition fee increase ... LET US HELP... It may be wrong to protest... but what makes it right... is the fact that we are fighting for something ... something that if not acted upon may be snatched from us... that something... is formal education...

Who would want a tuition fee increase in our time? The country is experiencing political and economical turmoil... how can simple students, whose parents salary are not even enough to present food for 3 meals a day, be able to coupe up with the tuition when it increases 3 times the present? That may cause the desolution of 1/2 the campus` population... Education is a right... being in this university.. using the taxer`s money... making efforts to do good... academically and morally... is not obliged...however it is also not just a simple gift... what we have here in our grasp and so with those future iskolar ng bayan... is a privilege... a privilege to be educated just like ,if not greater, with those in the high payed campuse like Ateneo, La Salle, Letran, UST and many others.. in low cost..

the true sense of being an iskolar ng bayan... is gaining education in affordable means... but increasing the tuition from 300 to 1000 per unit is destroying the whole sense of it... honestly, I may be able to pay such tuition... however does this mean that putting it up is right? s0me people would not want to help cause they are thinking that they can fit-in in such a scenario... however is it right? first of all... being here in the University of the Philippines... gives us a task to be the future builders of this country... because of such a reason... We must be noted that we must fight for the right of every Filipino youngsters that may pass the upcat exams the same privilege we have from the past.... We must help in building the support for the generation next to us that they too... just like us... can obtain the affordable formal education the university has to offer.. another thing is that.... allowing such thing to happen may show them that we are weak and we will just allow any revisions in the university proper .... freedom to express and be heard is then oppressed.... after that we are left of nothing... what may be next? we don`t know.. and we must not let it happen...

It all starts here...

Ang tunay na iskolar ng bayan ay marunong ipaglaban ang karapatan niya... ang karapatan ng sambayanan... ang karapatan nang makabagong kabataan... Narito tayo dahil napili tayo... at kung hahayaan natin ang isang maling pagbabago... marahil tayo na ang huling magiging napili ng sambayanan ... wala man akong gustong i-implikang masama... subalit... tanging sa atin na lamang may napupuntahang maganda ang kaban ng bayan... pero bakit ipinagkakait pa rin ito sa atin... Tayo ang kinabukasan... kaya`t wag nating hayaan ang maling pagbabagong ito na sirain ang karapatan nating matuto... at mabigyan ng edukasyon... na kaya natin...

Ka-iska... Ka-isko... kaya natin to kung sama sama tayo... kaya natin `to kung di natin ito hahayaan... Ikaw ay iskolar ng bayan.... Patunayan natin ito... ang kakayanan nating magsalita at magpakita ng tama... Ikaw to... Para sa iyo ito... isko at iska...

Education may be the last existing thing we can show the world.. so dont let it just pass off your grasps...

scion

[] 1st WeeK []

Classes has already resumed... Just like how it happens for the past 12 years... you wake up... get dressed... get things ready... ride all your way to school... meet old friends... meet new ones... you go off to class... attend orientations... and other more things I wont waste time writting... the point is... everything just happens as it always do... but their is one difference... you are now in a new school... new terrain... new place... new professors... and that new home im in now... is the University of the Philippines... Yes, my friends... Im part of the lucky people... who for some reasons... are accepted and is here to make something good out of the taxes you pay to the government...

The fees are not as high as the other universties... that is why facilities in the campus may not be the first class... the rooms may only be equipped with two ceiling fans... equipments may be lacking... but though in such a condition... Im still proud... Why? simply because.... " UP kc..." just like how the high officials who spoke their speeches... We might not have the best of equipments... We might not have the most highly paid professors <>... at least... the wisest of minds are here... that simple... that great...

Im proud to say... my schedule is one of the best... some people even envy me... why? let us put it this way... I enter school early.. and I end it early too... and when I say early... I mean EARLY! My first class start at 8:30 am ... and ends at 11:30 am during tuesdays and fridays... while 1 pm during the other days...

but though with such luck in winning myself such a schedule... I received an equal bad luck... Lets begin with my place of class... during monday & thursdays ... My subject locations are alternate... I shall explain... We have building 1 and 2 ... my first class starts at 3rd floor of bldg 1... the next class is in bldg 2 also 3rd floor... after which... the last class is then catered in the next room a hall way away from my 1st class room... which is yes... also 3rd floor... see!

The next bad luck... I thought I was not going to have a math class... and I was glad for that ... everyone must know I flunck my math class... ALWAYS! but all that was then changed...my major class is Philo 12... intermidiate logic... everything was normal... the syllabus was then shown to us.. in it... capitalized as topic titles: Propositional CALCULUS and Predicate CALCULUS... so much for my luck... my major is so Math-ish!! worst case... its CALCULUS... may be harder than Algebra , Trigonometry & Geometry put together.. and to make it much fun... I never listened in my proving lessons in high school... Isn`t that so great!?

So much for that... College might be a great adventure... oh well.. it all starts here they say... so... lets be happy we are here... That may be all for now... Go UP... Go CSSP... Go Philo Majors... Go block N-5... hehe...

[] daViNCi CodeS []

what was in davinci c0de that pe0ple made a big issue 0ut 0f it? Sue me if y0u want... but ive res0rt myself in watching the m0vie illegally... c0z their is n0 chance i can watch it in a m0vie h0use... s0 Yes... a kid kn0cked 0n my wind0w when i was g0ing h0me last saturday... asking me t0 buy... and bec0z i really wud want t0... i b0ught it p75.. even half the price 0f the n0rmal m0vie ticket..

n0w n0w.. what`s with the st0ry that alm0st every0ne { even my father f0r that matter - he cursed me cause he caught me watching it and the stupid beast sp0ke as if he knew anything ab0ut that... he wish..} is against it... just like h0w i t0ld my father... are y0u that weak 0f faith.. that such a fetish blasphem0us m0vie c0uld alter the b0rn religi0n in y0u? Why are th0se pe0ple scared? what is their t0 be scared 0f? are th0se information true thats is why their asses are flaming with guilt?

early that saturday.. i was in the h0use 0f a cl0se friend... I was their t0 share their celebrati0n 0f blessing the h0use.. everything was n0rmal... the visit0rs the prayers... but their was 0ne thing that really made me mad.. the priest went in to my friends r00m { he was d0ing the wet-everything-with-h0ly-water ritual...} ... he saw the b00k davinci and said.. in insulting manner { as t0ld by ate she} `` wag it0 basahin nu ah... ung bible``... ha?! that was abs0lutly the m0st senseless thing i`ve heard fr0m a cath0lic priest...

havent the church knew that even jesus ... the pers0n they/we praise and l00k up t0... never apprehended the beliefs 0f 0ther pe0ple... g0d made free will.. he wanted us t0 ch00se what t0 believe... what t0 live thr0ugh... but what is happening is that we are given what t0 choose by the same person who taught us of the free-will thing... Why are they scared so much if they kn0w it was all lie... hmmm... they made it appear that they are m0re guilty f0r acting aggressively...

I myself... wh0se age bel0w 18 - the age wh0 they THINK c0uld N0T understand ... a believer of cath0licism... did n0t even take it seriouslly when i was reading the b00k... I was free 0f any d0ubt that it was true... but what made me think twice was the reaction by the g0d-centerd-persons..epitomes-of-the-almighty... voices-of-god... it was they who push me to think it was true... the book did n0t c0mpel me that much... the b00k was even far fr0m blasphem0us... they t0ld th0se inf0rmati0n... but the b00k did n0t dev0id the religion... they just said s0mething hidden... the wr0ng d0ing 0f the ruler 0f the church... but n0t the wr0ng d0ing 0f god and jesus... they must have accepted it... c0z even hist0ry supp0rts it... n0t the mary magdaln matter f0r that scenari0.. but the bl00dshed.. the killing.. the 0ppression... even the choosing 0f gospels f0r what THEY think is m0re useful... and 0thers hidden... i then thought... they were n0t defending god`s 0r jesus` divinity.. they were rather pr0tecting their 0wn self agenda.. their 0wn p0wer 0ver the w0rld.. as what is suspected...

They say it was scandal0us... that is why the are forcing its information lost in history... but have they not believe god that much... jesus taught... l0ve y0ur enemy... jesus taught... let pe0ple think what they think... jesus taught... let the people see and believe... jesus taught... believe in him cause when in troubled times he would be their to right what is wrong... jesus taught... the very 0pp0site thing the church has been d0ing n0w...

Im abram... 16 yrs old... living in caloocan.... son of virginia and estanislao... from the clan of lumbang and arabia.. I have read and watch the davinci code... I was b0rn catholic.. lived cath0lic... and will die cath0lic... Im here to serve god... but n0t the church by which the catholicism came from.. i still believe but d0ubts that the church is holy... find me if you want ... Im n0t scared.. I stand by my faith as a catholic.. but stands away fr0m the church... in my mind still lingers a question... who threats more of debunking my belief? the b00k and the m0vie whose artful creation was fantastic which is being 0ppressed coz of the LIES {as told by the churh} it has revealed... or the church that shows guilty bey0nd doubts...

Just like has it been said.. let them see... and let them be the one to judge.. which is which is not...

~~~

scion

[] NoN-SeNSe []

Im making this post cause I want to update my blog but their is simply nothing great coming out of it... so here is what i`ve got for now...

What makes me sane for the past few weeks?

>> Roentgen text pass <<

I know not everyone knows this... or maybe they know but we keep on telling them the thing does not exist... Since the start of the summer... the roentgen people agreed on chatting with each other in a send to all basis.... it means everybody in the so called text pass circle is going to get the same messages that you are going to utter to anyone belonging to the circle... This craze was started by Ruth a few weeks after end of classes... and since then we have been using it and its been helpful in opening up to everybody... and kind of backstabbing also... specially those out of the circle..

>> Internet, blogging, friendster, survey <<

If you might not notice... my yahoo messenger id has not turned off for sometime now which means ive been online almost everyday and even everynight... You must also have noticed that my picture has been roaming about in the friendster`s bulletin board.. coz ive been answering stupid and senseless surveys just to keep my time some what productive... Ive also gone stupid opening links just like edgar`s that made my summer life exciting and fun { however it does not mean i`ll not kill edgar if ever i`ll see him in the near future...}...

>> Ragnarok <<

Maybe almost everyone in the world knows this online RPG game... Ive been hooked to this game since 3rd year... Ive been happy knowing my mother is generous enough to spare 100 peso every week just to let me buy my ragna load... uhmmm.. or should i say im just a great trickster that`s why my mother is buying my so sweet words.. oh anyway... that is it for these part... Ronin!!

>> audio - visuals <<

If your house is near to us... maybe some 2 blocks away.. id be sure you would be hearing loud rock music... which is if you must know ... comes from my room... Ive been putting the stereo-type speakers to maximum volume and also the mp3 player simply to make happy music... I even wonder why no one has been complainging... maybe the others are also bored enough so they resort with me with loud music.. Another cool thing Ive been watching these days is the japanes show gokusen... I love the story and how scenes were presented... another cool show is pbb... some may say I must be some kind of jologs.. but i think those who are wanting to tell me that are posers... pbb is a nice show and... kim is enough to make it worth watching... Go KIM!!

What makes me insane for the past few weeks?

>> Cellular phone <<

This makes me so stressed out since the night before yesterday... my celphone... one of the things that makes me sane... would not open!! I had used it earlier last thursday... but cause of an unknown reason... It just wont open... I could still remember that Id been using it that night when it suddenly hangged... I remove its batteries cause i thought their is no chance it will operate back... after doing so.. the stupid phone would not open anymore... I plan to bring it to a repair shop later this afternoon... and how I wish it would be in a good condition after that... hmmm...

>> Summer Heat <<

It is so hot... no further explanation ... everybody in these god-damn Philippines must have known that since April... hmmm

Look how senseless Ive been these summer... hmm... My mind would not even work great enough to produce better post than the likes... hmmm... I ive gone poor in english... I think... hmm.. I could see some errors from these post.. specially with the use of these and this... hmmm... but im too tired to edit it all up... so let us just leave it that way.. hmm...

[] beHiNd []

Im here... feet wrapped up by me... residing in a cold and devastated ruins of the past... I was left here alone... longing for the warmth only an angel can let me feel... I feel my body turning restless and numb... I could not sense but these cold floor i have been lying on... and the only dreams i see are nightmares... Im here searched by phantoms... hunting to catch me off guard... wanting to break me into tears...

Im here... chained in the memories of a past... I could not stray for in every corner i see the face... the smiles that once made my own... It was me... that served my own worst enemy... I became an epitome of a history... of a story... a tale.. that has come to an end... an end i could not barelly accept...

Im here... watching through the window... a railing... that has served a wall between me and the world... storms came and i watched in awe as the rain kisses my window.. wondering how beauty was created... from a storm which from my sight was rather chaotic... how art came through... why cant i do the same...

Im here... having the sight of the sun as it rises and sets.. watching the horizon... wishing i could share these pristine beauty with someone... wishing the painting i took sight can make me smile a bit... but rather.. it smites me eagerlly and places me back to where i once passed... where once i was happy...

Im here... prisoner of my own thoughts... Im lying down for an infinity... wanting some one may pass by... to offer me up... wishing a wind may blow enough to lift me up out of these place.... I want to free myself... yet it is myself... that places me into these dillema...

Im here... and here shall I be... for i could not leave it any way... I have been here when the end began to start... when apocalypse was within my reach... I have been here as the pillars that held me... crumbled down... and i fell to darkness... It is a lie to say... the memories has gone out... every inch of what-was was doomed to oblivion... that everything that must have been was gotten over with... when i know for a fact... it never did...

~~~

scion

[] eTHiCs []

what is right? what is wrong? who dares to conclude and stand up for his word? What has been the standards for such conclusion? Has heaven enumerated in complete detail what is right? what is proper?

A certain news alarmed me these very early m0rning... I caught sight 0f it fr0m j0mar`s bl0g...

http://news.inq7.net/common/print.php?index=1&story_id=74542&site_id=18

In what position do they have to tell us~ represented by a 7-year old child~ that we pinoys eat delinquently like pigs simply because we use spoon and fork? When has anyone seen a pig use utensils by the way? but i have seen pigs act w/o ever caring for beings around him... as indirectly stated.. I conclude that the manners exposed by whoever is concerned in labelling us is more rubbish and pig-like than what he posed us to be...

The standards of table etiquette does not necessarily mean that knife is used than spoon... Table etiquette imposes respect among those who share the meal... Utensils are just minor details... In such a case, the canadian must have respect...yet he showed rather barbaric manners.. unethical for an educated person...

who is he to correct a born tradition... who is he to stain the prestige of a nation... does he think simply because they are more powerful they have the right to conclude.. to undeliberatelly dishonor the existence of an ideal? does nationality credits to show an upright man? No.. they are in no position... they are not even right in saying it is an important thing to use knife for manners sake... If they live in such a country as ours serving dishes which does not even need knife in the table... they`ll rather look stupid than learned...

Talking about these matter does not only center on the simple idea of misconceptualiztion... rather what broader issue to be discuss here is racial discrimination... other countries must learn to show equal respect to those of other countries... We might be a 3rd world country but such data does not make us under anyone higher than our technology can handle... such position does not give them any license to allow them in pushing us down... They are simply alike among each of us... they have same pair of eyes.. ears.. even they have the hole in their anus just like us... what differences we have is the place to which we reside... which is not a reason for anyone to consider himself higher and gives him the right to unscrupulously dictate us...

Im a Filipino and Im proud of it... I use spoon and fork when i eat... I even use my hand sometimes... but that does not show that im pig like... its what ive grown from... but whever I see someone using different utensils than i do.. i never say they are out of proper decorum.. rather i accept their manner of eating... that is more ethical isn`t it?

scion

[] CoMRadeS []

They are pe0ple wh0 lives with us in 0ur daily r0utine... they c0me t0 0ur life when we are m0st devastated... they share us their j0kes t0 laugh with... st0ries t0 emulate int0... w0rds t0 p0nder... they are their when we need them... when we feel we are left 0ut by h0w fast 0ur life is running... they are their when we get s0 dizzy running in circles with lifes m0st intricate r0ads... When we cann0t find refuge... when the st0rms caught us 0ff-guard.. when we are d0wn waiting f0r a hand t0 pull us up... they are th0se pe0ple we w0uld want t0 be with always f0r they care... they never left... they are always there t0 back y0u up... they are y0ur friends...

When we feel that the weight 0f life is t00 much f0r us... When we cann0t carry anym0re burden... when 0ur 0wn self - defiance has tricked us and keeps 0n pushing us 0ff the main r0ad.. t0 wh0m d0 we call... they are angels sent f0rth by the divine being.. they were sent t0 abitrate hell's bludge0nings.. they cater t0 0ur needs at 0ur m0st despicable state... we call f0r them f0r help... they are y0ur friends...

What are we with0ut them... we must have c0mmited the m0st dreadful acti0ns... we must have l0st 0ur way in these c0nfusing life... we must have placed 0urselves int0 an asylum 0f depressi0n.. they served us as 0utlets... we can set 0ur s0ul free fr0m bleeding w0unds with there guidance... they fill in the emptiness that we feel when we are left unattended by heaven's divine gifts... when we take stupid ideas int0 c0nsiderati0n.. they are there t0 v0id them away... f0r all they want is f0r us t0 be happy... they are y0ur friends...

they have been there in my extreme ups... and stressful d0wns... they made me wh0 i am n0w... they t00k me int0 their carriage and sh0wed me true c0maraderie.... they made me smile when i felt my w0rld was in cha0s.. they were there t0 put me back up when i was t0rn apart... they made me laugh when tears fell fr0m my eyes... Cheered me up as i live in my life filled with th0rns and blades...

I am thankful f0r their enc0uragements... their supp0rt when my 0wn c0uld n0t care me anym0re... My w0rds are n0t en0ugh t0 give gratitude... t0 sh0w h0w great they have been t0 me... h0w much I thank G0d f0r letting y0u pass by me.. and interfere and mingle with my life... thank God f0r all0wing them t0 have time t0 reach 0ut t0 me... THANK Y0U the m0st t0 th0se pe0ple wh0 served as my friends.. th0se wh0 sh0wed me that life is n0t that g00d... but their are pe0ple g00d en0ugh t0 make it 0ne... thank y0u f0r being part 0f my stupid life...

friends... they act like shit when y0u d0nt need them... but is w0rth g0ld when y0ur at the peak 0f y0ur fall... It is s0 hard t0 find 0ne... s0 if y0u already have them... never ever let them g0... cause s00n en0ugh y0u shall surelly need their hand when y0u already fall...

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scion

Ive g0ne 0ut

[] LiFe []

0ur life may be the greatest shit the creat0r gave us... it might be a sp0iled and stressful j0urney t0wards n0thingness.. It c0uld be a burden which is quiet a difference fr0m the belief that it is a gift... but even with such depiction... we sh0uld be reminded that it is abs0lutely SPECIAL...

have y0u ever th0ught h0w w0nderful has it been made that a human has the essentiallities t0 live, learn and d0minate... the exact mind t0 c0mprehend... the exact senses t0 predict... the exact c0mp0siti0n t0 which we shall survive... We were given the p0tential t0 surm0unt life`s greatest challenges...

H0w precise it is f0r 0ur life t0 be created 0ut 0f s0mething... Science may have pr0ved the pr0bable cause 0f life... h0wever they have been appr0ximate in pr0ving h0w accurate has it been that a child is born fr0m a m0ther`s w0mb... h0w perfect was it that the right elements that c0mp0se the b0dy c0njured int0 0ne amazing life... guess science is n0t that erudite en0ugh t0 get 0ver b0ard the supreme being... h0w ever pr0cess might have 0ccured 0n h0w i was created fr0m my m0ther`s tummy... I`ll beleive that i was hand-made by G0d... I was m0lded fr0m His sincerity... a hand must have been 0mniputently present in my m0thers`s w0mb and brewed me int0 a perfect creati0n.. a perfect pers0n... a perfect life...

Life as y0u live it n0w may have been t0psy-turvy... but that was n0t cause by life itself... it was created by y0u... the paintbrush was given t0 y0u after y0ur birth... G0d made y0u an art... He left it up t0 y0u h0w y0u`d make s0mething 0ut 0f a perfect art.. He trusted you... s0 while the paint is still en0ugh why n0t c0l0r it back int0 w0nderful c0l0rs...

Life is special... We cann0t see it c0z we have been hiding its glam0ur fr0m sheets 0f unending c0ncealment... we have been suppressing the gr0wth 0f a w0nderful fl0wer... that it must have always been... Life is n0t a trash if it were n0t made 0ne... It`s s0mething with shimmering elegance... an iridescent diam0nd turn dull by 0ur 0wn deeds...

While we have time t0 live it greater... why should we terminate... rather we sh0uld initiate... we sh0uld 0verawe every0ne... sh0w them the p0tentialities 0f life.... sh0w them h0w distinct life is.. life is special... and whatever happens it will always be the m0st majestic gift 0f all..

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scion

Ive g0ne 0ut

[] LauGTHeR []

What do we do when sorrow fill into us... when the feeling succumbs every part of us... When things re-act itself in our mind... when in our every deed, even with great resistance, they still surface... What do we do? what must be done?

sometimes... most of us resort ourselves to release every pain by crying... letting each droplet fall... hoping these are the parsels of our sorrow... hoping that as they fall things will ease in the very instant they set to stop... some other release the tension by cursing... shit them ~blah blah~... kill them all ~blah blah~... hell them ~blah blah~... and some other take a step out of reality and leaving everything into chance... in short... they just simply leave it there and make there life hell due to circumstances that made total wreckage to them..

Why should things come out worst? why must people put themselves into such options that makes a total different persona... Haven`t we taken into consideration the rule of equal trade? Isn`t it that in every loss their is something in return? so why snivel? why curse? why be crazy? why place ourselve to state of discomfort? I know one option that can make all the difference... Laughter...

Laughter... the initial reaction to express happiness... It looks so ironic to advise a person to laught while he is in a traumatic stage which left him with such great weight... but allowing a bunch of laughter sip into your lifestyle eagerly allows release of tension... stress... sorrow... problems... allowing ourselves to laugh... makes a breathing strike to our soul... taking in laughter into our daily routine... puts us into euphoria which leaves no space for sorrow to take entrance...

Laughing amidst a great dilemma... is simply hiding us from the reality that we are hurt... but making humor to your problems makes them lighter... why make a direct hit of resistance that would not work... when you can shave off the weight of devastation... inch by inch... but sure in laughing... I hate people who says we must face the problem to learn how to get over it... is getting over making a disaster out of yourself? is getting over making a memory out of such a thing you would not want to remember? is getting over putting us back to the battle field? Is that getting over? I call that suicide... thats placing yourself in a room of bombs you know soon enough would explode...

Life is still life... your sorrow was brought about by just a fetish part of your time on earth... so why waste the remaining time... in such a manner of locking ourselves up to a past that, whatever we do, would not change... We must be happy for in every trial their is a key to greater glory... for in every storm their is a sunshine waiting past it... all we need to do is putting in mind that we must make happy what is left of us... rather than focusing into something that need not to be focused... laugh out to things... and you`ll know waht mystique power it holds...

Laughter... takes off stress... links us out of reality... and plays a good role in making us happy...

~~~

scion

Ive g0ne 0ut

[] Revived []

What the future brings is a great mystery... a t0pic in which the great phil0s0phers seek t0 f0rtell... what is there that t0m0rr0w shades... what is there t0 be hidden in such a manner where humanity has n0 image 0f... what is written in 0ur palms that we 0urselves cann0t see until they c0me... what is the future? what is 0ur destiny?

A n0rmal pers0n w0uld want t0 see his future... s0 that he c0uld change what is there t0 arrive... h0wever such scenari0 w0uld mean destructi0n t0 equilibrium... the manner in which the w0rld runs ab0ut... everything happens bec0z it needs t0 happen.. they happen bec0z there is need t0 do so... they happen t0 equalize and n0rmalize the life 0n earth...

pe0ple say that life ,as what is, has been written by a supreme being... written in scr0lls and manuscripts... encoded by wh0m we shed 0ur lives fr0m... a presedential decree f0ll0wed until eternity... 0ur life has been given birth even bef0re we are ever b0rn... the time by which i type this and the ideas that rushes int0 me is kn0wn even bef0re i turned this c0mputer 0n... every r0tati0n 0f life was made in advance...

What happens in 0ur lives were never mistakes n0r chance... they were all 0ath t0 happen... s0me things hurts.. but th0se burden were there with reas0n... s0me happy gags happen... c0z they are there f0r a reas0n... tears fall and cries ech0es... they happen... c0z their is a reas0n...

we may n0t see what the future is ahead 0f us... but surelly what may happen is n0t a fault... rather a destiny... what must happen is n0t chance... rather fate... what we are is what we must be... s0 never waste what is t0day f0r what is t0m0rr0w is s0mething s0 different fr0m what it was...

life was w0ven fr0m the first day it was made... Life happens... things are destined... it just takes wh0... h0w... when... it must happen...

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scion

I`ve g0ne 0ut...

Mai RiM uoY eVoLi

our life is a roller coaster... millions of swings... millions of turns... millions of twists... but just like any coaster... riding it is better with someone... someone you will feel safe... someone who simply bends everything to straight lines... some one who fills in the blind spot in you...

We could never change a fact when it proves its existence true... We can never deny something undeniable... We can never trick a lie to submit it self to be right... I make much of an intermission... but the wonder of words uttered can never challenge... words spoken in silent hearts... our hearts are just like morse codes... each beat has a meaning... however whose meaning hard to predict...

People may wonder for I dont really write such topic in my articles... Honestly, I might have been scared to tell... but now as I pass another wonder in my life... Their is nothing stopping me now...

In life somethings are so unpredictable... Some things just happened with out any alarms... After a great night in a promenade yesterday... I came up with one thing... To tell you people... The reason why I tell everyone else na : Tanong mo kay lord... cause some things are not understandable by men... some things just happen... do I Love her? hell do I do... And that would be one thing that would never change... a fact that forever shall take part in my life... a fantasy turn reality... a dream turn truth... She is the lady I shall not care to offer everything for she is all that I ask... She is all I love... She is all of me... Until the last breath shall I speak of her name... She is my life... my love... my past... present... future... I Love you!!

~~~

[a]scion[e]

[] PT genz []

The 0nly thing we could cherish when we`ve got nothing to do are simple memories... Just like the games y0u play, the st0ries y0uve shared, j0kes y0u thr0w at each 0ther and having their c0mpany m0st 0f the time.

Yesterday, January 20.... iT was a happy m0ment t0 g0 t0 the mall and be with your friends just like what we`ve d0ne ... kulitan t0 the max... kantahan blues... t0d0 racing... wasakan ng kamay sa air h0ckey... kainang walng humpay... asaran na walang hanggan at cyempre kwentuhang walang humpay... It was s0 tires0me... paik0t ik0t... gul0....

I was actually late because I still went t0 my m0ther`s 0ffice t0 make stupid excuse just f0r her t0 all0w me 0ut.... shhhh... d0nt tell her... I did s0me stuff and cancelled plans f0r the aftern00n... and after that 0ff I g0 back t0 Faura... pass the supreme c0urt and UP... thr0ugh the right wing entrance and t0 G-b0x where I 0athed t0 meet them... b0x 7...

We were n0t cmplete when I arrived... s0me went h0me early... s0me 0ther ch0se d0ta... 0thers g0t s0me errands t0 attend and 0n Mai`s case... she was absent... and s0me just like me are 0athed t0 f0ll0w...

Ive beaten lhauny and baps in air h0ckey [ my ch0ice 0f game ]... We alm0st l0st the thing y0u g0tta hit cause it simply flew 0ut 0f track... Use the stupid racing machine... that w0nt allw us play vs m0de... singing inside b0x 7... mind y0u... I never sang at that time... playng the sh00ting game with kiankee... we l0st a bunch 0f t0ken f0r that game... eating mini d0ugh nuts... I like m0cha better than the 0ther 0ne... and many 0ther stuff...

Well... it was fun t0 have a stress-free aftern00n... n0 errands t0 d0... n0 b0ring time... it was pure fun... its n0t my nature t0 g0 0ut... but I ch0se t0 j0in in... cause I want t0 free my self... even just f0r a while... till next tym....

[] What? []

What has been happening these past few days has been bugging me for sometime now. Everything happening is like one destined chain of events that makes my mind blow. What is happening to me? to everyne else? Is it just a new years resolution they are trying to abide by? or am i just practically insane simply because the change of events blasts on my face without any warning.

I hate the most when things starts to go against me. My every little support soothes itself to crumlble leaving me in awe. Every aspect of my life supprt begins to get scarce and my lack of these chokes me so much i cant barelly do my everyday choir. My head breaks apart mst of the time nw and i just cant think of anyway on how to go each day of living having such. Adds up is this hell-knws-it-sucks keyboard that cant produce a couple of alphabet pushing me to use an on-screen keyboard which for everynes knwledge is halting the arising ideas my mind fabricates in a rush and if not followed upon pops out, away frm any reach my mind can handle.

I cant speculate of any reasn why i began hating the year. Cant even think of any damb reasn its doing worst of my every breath. why cant it just cast its abnrmalties apart frm me and play it with sme other who would probably entertain himself with thse?

Life is too cruel. She abslutelly gives me the wrst of my nightmares. Why cant she just be keener to undrstand I cant handle the loads of stuff she poses on my shoulder? Im no mutant... Im no super human... Ive felt so stressed out. A catch of breath might have been the nly relaxati0n i had after a days course 0f events. My life sucks.

Ive been so pushed t0 things I w0uld n0t want t0 have and placed t0 places I would nt want t0 g0. I als0 hate th0se eyes that lingers everywhere as if listing up a data ab0ut me. Its like as if their eyes tells me Ive d0ne a massacre 0r that im alien flwn 0ut fr0m s0mewhere eating human flesh t0 fill my hunger.

Whats with y0u all? The year just ended and yet y0u make me crazy because 0f y0ur acti0ns. Are y0u all changing 0r is it me? as far as my instincts say... Im n0 different fr0m what I was. 0r am I just s0 hysterical due by my m0mentarilly l0st 0f intelligence and !ulirat! - cant find the right english that fits. I just am n0t s0 bright en0ugh t0 unerstand b0dy language t0 predict them.

I c0uld never be sme0ne everyne wanted me t0 be s0 st0p making me feel bad im just n0 mr. perfect. Ive been having bad days s0 please let me be. and please keep me 0ut frm the strangest 0f desp0ndency.